We can't stop it. Things are always changing around us and my current situation is just one where I find an abnormally large amount of change. It hit me last night when I was saying goodbye to our summer youth interns, "I may never see these people again." It's weird to me to realize that the friends I have now probably won't be playing an active part in my life a year from now. It makes me kind of sad to think that I could possibly lose some of the friends I have right now. It hit me like a wave that my life has reached a tipping point. I feel like college is somehow the big separator between your childhood and your adult life and very few people (other than those related to you) make it through.
I mean, I'm overreacting a little bit, but then again, I know myself. I suck at keeping in touch. Like Skype makes it a little easier, but I've figured out that my love language is quality time and so I have to work really hard to maintain a relationship with someone I never see. If I felt that bad after saying goodbye to an intern that I've know for 3 months (albeit he's a fantastic intern & possibly one of my favorite people ever), how am I going to send off my best friend of 5 years to Minnesota? I was not expecting to have this kind of emotional reaction. Like it's so strange to me that this would happen. I've had friends drift away before, but it was never like "Hey I'm moving." It was more of a gradual thing.
I still have over a month before I move up to Seattle, so I'm not freaking out about my transition to college just yet, but I am nervous. Being in situations where I know no one have never been my strong suit. I turn shy and can't find things to say. But more on that later!
I've never wanted so hard to keep relationships like the ones I have now, but to all my friends reading this, you have gotta put in the effort too.
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