When I was a kid, at my birthday parties, my parents would put on this rather awful puppet show in which they sang this song "I don't ever want to grow...no!" And it continued from there. ( Don't ask me why...I was 5, it seemed cool.) Well anyways, I was thinking about it and about how I am almost grown up. I'll be 18 in a little over 2 months. I'll be moving out next year, and I'm becoming more responsible for my own life. It's pretty crazy and I don't feel quite ready yet honestly.
Growing up is a strange phenomenon and it kills me to think that every decision I have made to this point has affected who I am today. The idea that every little decision I make actually has an impact on the general direction and focus of my life is incredible...and incredibly stressful. I don't know how people who don't believe in a higher power can do it. Knowing that God has my back and is watching over me is the only thing that keeps me sane enough to function.
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you joy and a future." is my mantra these days. I'm just glad as I make decisions he is there to guide me and help me out.
I love you all and will miss you dearly when I leave :)
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