And we begin...with some words.

Today, I was inspired to begin a blog. I want to start a blog that doesn't focus on the petty things I tend to find myself drawn to, but one where I can honestly pontificate to myself and I suppose others if anyone reads it. This is my senior year of high school and is proving itself to be very stressful. Who knew it would be so hard to pick where I will spend some of the most formative years of my life? Therefore, I will probably use this to keep you all up to date on my latest thoughts and shenanigans regarding the future, but also I think I would like to post little random thoughts I have about society, God, and the ideas I am learning about (plus I'm sure this will prove itself an excellent procrastinating tool...in fact, it already is, but Statistics homework can wait).

Tonight at youth group the message was all about words. The influence that other people's words have on you and the influence your words have on others. I realized through the sermon that other people's words don't affect me in the long term. I remember instances where I have been upset by something somebody has said, but when asked to present the worst thing anyone has said about me, I drew a blank. I'm going to take this as a good thing, that negative comments seem to mostly bounce off me, although I am positive I haven't received the verbal abuse many others have. What I'm trying to get at though is that, words don't really affect me and I've really never thought about how my words affect others. With this thought in mind, I aim to pay much more attention to the words I use this week. 

Words are such a funny thing. So small and easy to use, yet so powerful. The idea that someone can change my mood, or the tone of my day or week with a little movement of their teeth and tongues is weird. I guess I've always aimed to not let people influence me, I largely believe in my own ability to make my own day. I have the power to be positive and it's strange to me when I realize that not everyone thinks that way. Most of my friends don't think that way. The idea that I can set the tone for somebody else throws me for a loop every single time. People are so dang complicated.

Welcome to my journey of figuring that out.